There are many times in life that I have found myself disappointed in the direction my relationships were going. Many times I have found myself living for the people around me instead of for myself. I was always available to help, to hangout, to listen. But very few people were always available for me, when I needed them.
The day that I realized that there is no one else in my life who I can always rely on but myself, was the day that I became my own best friend. At first it was a sad realization, but shortly after I became liberated at the idea of never having to look to someone else for my happiness. I soon found that I was the only one responsible for my own happiness and unhappiness. I couldn’t expect a best friend or a boyfriend to read my mind and know what I really wanted but I could most certainly read my own.
After that I picked up a paint brush again. I went on a baking spree and scoured pinterest for recipes to please my sweet tooth. I stopped putting up with the people in my life who didn’t lift me higher. I began texting people back on my own terms. If I didn’t feel like going out, I wasn’t. I began thinking of all of the possibilities of my future and my own potential. Not the potential of a relationship. Not the potential of a friend. Not the potential of a boy. I started wearing what I wanted, and if the latest trend wasn’t my style…I sure as hell wasn’t wearing it. If you didn’t like my clothes, I didn’t care. I stopped trying to be cool and started trying to be me.
That is when my life changed. That is when a smile returned to my face. That is when I finally found life in my eyes once again. That was the day I regained my voice. The day I realized I couldn’t rely on anyone to be there for me, but me. It was then that I began the life long adventure of figuring out who I am and what I live for, which was no longer for other people. I challenge everyone to question themselves and their beliefs. I challenge everyone to travel outside of their comfort zone and find comfort in themselves. I challenge everyone to tie themselves to their own dreams and not to people or things.